I don't understand why food tempts me so much... it's only fuel to keep me alive. It isn't necessary to overfill your car with fuel? So why do I want to overfill myself? Why are we made so that we eat and eat and eat.. it's disgusting. I had 730 calories yesterday and 800 today. I feel awful about the 800. I don't want to go over 700. I WON'T tomorrow! I WON'T! It's so hard at lunch watching people eat fried chicken patties and french fries, pizza, all my worst cravings.. while I eat my little bit of tuna. The disgusting truth is I can eat like 10 huge men given the opportunity. I'm full with my 100 calories of tuna but I still WANT the fries... UGH..
I wonder why i hate myself so much.
I feel the extact way. I hate food, but I love to eat.
ReplyDeleteIt's hard for me to watch other people eat at my lunches too, but you have to stay focus on becoming thin!
It just confuses me so much when I see itty bitty people eating a TON of food! One of my good friends is the smallest girl I've ever seen but she eats like a 180 lb guy! Normally, even though she seems to have it easy, her thin-ness just makes me want to work harder to equal her :)
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