Happy!!

I met my boyfriends parents this weekend!! :) I'm sooo happy even though I binged too much.. alcohol tends to make me relax enough to forget why the hell I shouldn't eat canes chicken fingers!! It was worth it though.. I really like my boyfriends rents and didn't want them to think I was strange or anything. We ended up having a blast at the LSU game and watching the saints game the next day!! :D

BUT now I'm back on track!! My moral is soooo high!! I quit taking my anti-depressants and I'm so much happier off them.. thank god! Acutane is a wonder drug!! My skin is already starting to clear up and I've only been on it for 10 days! My appetite is totally GONE!! :D The itchy lips, dry eyes, and aching muscles are a meager price to pay!! I've eaten a total of 300 calories today after unfortunatly purging after this weekend... I couldn't help it... I'm going to stick to my exact calorie plan I have layed out (in an excel chart.. yeap I'm a nerd)! I've made allowances for the inevitable and unavoidable Christmas/Thanksigiving/NewYears Binges... even a second thanksgiving since my boyfriend and I are driving to Texas to be merry and all that jazz with his family the day after actual thanksgiving!! :O Two thanksgivings... Whoa... Lol.. According to my plan I will weigh 128 or less by the day after new years!! I will make a new plan after that.. I will have to re-asses how much more weight I should lose at that point.

If anyone reads this what do you think is the perfect weight for someone who is 5'7/hourglass shaped/gains and loses weight evenly?? :) I'm just curious.. I'm thinking a BMI somewhere between 18.5 and 19.5 would be a good ultimate goal... which would put my goal weight someonewhere between 118 and 125 lbs.